Chat of Farid with Jeroen Olyslagers

Theatre of War 11 December 2001


farid: enters the room
The Hippy: enters the room
The Hippy: hi, man.
how are you?
farid: enters the room
farid: I am sorry. I encountered probs with my browser. So let us just start.
The Hippy: sure, no problem.
i just read your story, man.
that sure is some heavy shit.
farid: Good. At least someone read it. I am really glad. Now do you know what the SHIT stands for? I am sure you are not aware of it, are you?
The Hippy: god, man.
it's all so confusing.
all those stories...
pretty heavy to understand.
farid: Let me tell you what the word SHIT stands for first and then we will come to understanding. SHIT is: Special High Intensity Training. Now, with all due respect, for a person who has never been under SHIT, it is confusing. You know what I mean, if you haven't lost your dear members because of the voilence and its aftermath, if you haven't had thousands of people die in less than an hour and finally if you haven't had a B-52 flying on your head and dropping pieces of SHIT on you, it should be pretty confusing.
The Hippy: you are really funny, dude. i respect that.
i believe in peace, politics ain't my trip.
didn't those taliban guys blow up these ancient buddah statues a while ago?
i gotta tell you, i was shocked.
i really dig religion and ancient wisdom & culture...
don't you?
farid: Well to be honest with you, this is what almost everybody around me tells. Peace, the noble untoucheable thing that I could never feel or see since I was born. For you, it perhaps means tranquility and calmness and having a fine life, while for us, the children born and grown up in war time, it is something else. It is Pacific Entreaties After Centuries of Enmities. It is Poverty Eradication And Community Empowerment and it is a lot more...

Taliban did a lot of things, but what can you do over the spilt milk?
The Hippy: you really have a way with words, man. the only thing that we here in europe enjoyed about afghanistan and pakistan were the drugs.
the DOPE, dude. that's Dope Opens People Everywhere.
if it's so bad over there, why don't you just split?
get out of there!
you don't need that shit, do you?
Farid: enters the room
Farid: You are perhaps right in blaming our country for the DOPE. But let me just tell you something you might have enjoyed from Afghanistan too at an earlier stage. Welling fighters and the defeat of someone you have once feared it like anything, isn't it?

Anyways, we all regret what you have been receiving from us because of the fact that we had no control over it. How can you control and keep an eye over a huge house with a big yard of no boundary walls with no economy, no job opportunities, no banking systems, no education, and what not...

As for spliting, I couldn't really catch up what you mean. Is it at personal level or national?
The Hippy: i don't blame the dope, quite the opposite.
the dope is great.
but you personally seem to have suffered a lot over htere, right?
so why don't you get out?
you sound like an educated type of guy.
why make it so hard on yourself by staying?
Farid: enters the room
Farid: What do you expect me do? Sell everything that I have earned and got out of a place where more than 80 percent of the people live under the poverty level and pay a smuggler to make it across the west. I would be lucky to make it. Hundreds get drowned in the waters (Australian example) or killed on the way. Huhhhhaaaa you might have not heard all such sad stories. You are a lucky man! Father had grown you up well, lived in nice skyscrapers and played around all your life without seeing much of the troubles we observe at the very early stages of life in this part of the world. It is a different world my friend, much different than yours!
The Hippy: are you blaming me for all the things i have enjoyed so far?
i don't feel guilty at all, i'm sorry to say. and i'm sure you wouldn't if you were in my shoes, right?
you still talk about it in a very general way.
do you mind if i ask what happened to you?
lost any family members?
are you yourself poor?
tell me more, man.
Farid: Come on man, tell me, am I not really funny? I just brought two moods on you since we have started chatting; cheers and a bit of anger if I can see it correctly on your face there. I am not blaming anybody for anything, not even the fortune or luck or the destiny. No one is to be blamed man! All life is a game of luck, and you are lucky at wherever you are bcoz that is what you have got. The terms "less" or "more" are things our little minds define.

As for myself, nothing has happened to me except that I have lost my own life. The life that I have been hoping and aiming for years, a calm one. I am not poor by the way and earn the best salary .
The Hippy: true words, i guess.
pretty cool that you don't blame anyone, that you don't buy into all that guilt.
so you wanted a calm life, huh?
a calm, boring life with a nice job, a wife and a couple of kids, a house in the suburbs.
it sound like the american dream.
but hey, i can understand that, sure.
but maybe, just maybe, you are leading the life that you can tell your grandchildren about.
you are experiencing something that is pretty unique.
why feel sorry for yourself?
Farid: During this conversation that we have had, I never said that I am sorry. In fact I don't remember using the word sorry. Anyway, I am not unhappy with who and what I am and things that I have got. You seem to be american. I can judge that not by the typical frequently used English words that you use in the american way of it "dude, cool ..." but by your flexibility. The fact that you soon got to sympathize with me, your kindness to ask me with more details about my personal life, my wealth and giving me moral support and encouraging me to carry on with life the way it currently is with me. You can rarely find such people in this huge world, can you?
Farid: During this conversation that we have had, I never said that I am sorry. In fact I don't remember using the word sorry. Anyway, I am not unhappy with who and what I am and things that I have got. You seem to be american. I can judge that not by the typical frequently used English words that you use in the american way of it "dude, cool ..." but by your flexibility. The fact that you soon got to sympathize with me, your kindness to ask me with more details about my personal life, my wealth and giving me moral support and encouraging me to carry on with life the way it currently is with me. You can rarely find such people in this huge world, can you?
The Hippy: perhaps i'm faking my sympathy, my friend.
perhaps i don't know what the fuck i'm talking about.
you know the expression "killing with kindness'?
perhaps that's exactly what i'm doing right now.
i'm killing you with kindness.
how would you feel about that, DUDE?
am i favourite asshole now?

Farid: Hey hold it on there. I am not the type of prejudist child to decide and make comments about the kind uncles giving him old rotten chocolates. I know you wanna test my reactions to different types of situations. That's fine, but let me tell you that we are now testing with hells of differences and distances between us and "killing with kindness" as you put it. I have seen and witnessed this killing with kindness within inches of my eyes. After all, it requires a great deal of courage to express what you have in the back of your mind or telling something that may not be welcomed by the other side.

All that a side, what other option do I have now but to praise you? By praising you I might turn you out to something that you originally and initially were not or did not plan to be. While by confronting you I will make my own life difficult. Do you know what I mean?
Farid: enters the room
The Hippy: perhaps we enjoy playing games, you and i.
perhaps it's all a mind fuck.
perhaps this ain't really happening.
(farid, nice talking to you. in another world we perhaps could have shared a beer. hang in there and take care.
i leave the last words to you.
my real name is jeroen by the way.)

Farid: Oh yeah buddy and keep it up that way. I would rather call it a mental masturbation. In situations when and where you can't do any much to help the sufferings and the voilence, you will have to mentally masturbate in order to get satisfied and that is exactly what we both have been doing for last two hours almost. Take care of yourself and nice e-chatting with you Jeroen. Bye bye....


 
 

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